Be Your Own Clean-Up Crew

jimrohnSometimes we get ourselves into difficult situations, and find we really want a way out, but the way does not seem clear. This is really common when we’re young. I certainly got myself into some tight spots along the way, and made a mess on the way out. Part of it is just that it takes time to know ourselves. It’s very easy to go through the first quarter of our lives being influenced by external factors. We might place a lot of value on what other people want for us. How other people want us to be or to feel. We might feel pressured by societal norms, or the way our friends seem to be doing things. There are countless ways to get lost on the path.

And when I say “the path”, I’m not suggesting there’s one path for everyone. I mean, your particular path. The one that’s going to lead to your deepest, truest self. The one that’s going to take you to your joy so you can swim in it and share it. The thing is, we aren’t encouraged to look inward, we’re taught to focus outside ourselves and meet certain markers, and those markers might differ from family to family, and from culture to culture, but we all have them. The expectations, the ingrained beliefs and ideas about things. Sometimes we have a lot of unlearning to do to figure out what makes sense to us, to uncover what scares us, inspires us, excites us. If you haven’t figured that out and you go ahead and make huge life decisions before you know who you are, you’re pretty much guaranteed to crash into some brick walls, and hurt yourself and others. As long as you aren’t reckless with other people, as long as you don’t set out to hurt anyone, no one can hate you for being young and confused, for thinking you want something, and then getting it, only to find out it is not what you thought it would be. That’s called being young and making mistakes, and it’s how we grow and learn.

Having said all of that, your choices and your actions define you, as does the way you make your mistakes, and the way you address them. What you do about how you feel is the stuff of character-building. Making a mistake is no crime. Handling it in a cruel or unkind way, leaving someone in the dark, showing a lack of compassion and empathy—those things are crimes. They’re crimes against your own heart and your own well-being, in addition to the harm you’re inflicting on the other party. The human heart is resilient, and most people will recover from heartbreak, abandonment or betrayal, given enough time, and assuming they avail themselves of tools that help with healing. Having to live with the fact that you treated someone poorly, though, that’s another thing. At night, in your bed, when all the noise of the day stops and you’re left with your thoughts and your internal dialogue, there’s nowhere to hide. You can’t run from yourself. You have to be able to live in your own skin, and breathe.

Sometimes we get desperate and it’s hard to face the mess we’ve made and so we try to run or hide or deny or deflect, and of course, that just compounds the pain and confusion, and lengthens the time it will take to heal. You cannot heal in murky waters, and you cannot heal if you lie to yourself. The sooner you face your problems head on, the sooner life will feel good again. It’s funny. Years ago I was on a play date with my son. He was about four. When we were leaving, I told him to go and help his friend clean up the mess of toys they’d created, and the other mom said her housekeeper would do it and that she preferred that anyway, because she didn’t want to end up with a nerdy kid who wore a pocket protector. I said I didn’t want to create a grown man who left his dishes and dirty laundry all over the house for his wife to pick up. I didn’t say it as a challenge, it just kind of slipped out, and we looked at each other and laughed and she sent both of our boys to go clean up. Often I see dog poop on the street. It’s the same syndrome. If you go through life expecting other people to clean up the messes you’ve made, don’t expect to be happy, because part of being happy requires that we’re accountable, that we’ve taken ownership of the way we’re going to show up in the world. Sometimes in an effort to help someone, we rob them of the opportunity to do that. Instead of helping, we’re enabling behavior that’s weakening this person we love, and true love doesn’t weaken us, it strengthens us.

Sending you some love right now,

Ally Hamilton

4 thoughts on “Be Your Own Clean-Up Crew”

  1. Hi Ally, I am 67 years young. I have been thru so much heartbreak and so much Therapy, but no one Ever helped me as much as you, with your wise letters. I look forward to getting them. And reading them takes my life back to living and not just surviving another day. I hope one day I will be able to meet the face behind this very wise mind! Thank you !!!! Best regards Ester Bubis

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  2. Reblogged this on Ode to a Mockingbird and commented:
    Looking for a quote, I stumbled upon this post. Having had a discussion about happiness, healing and personal accountability yesterday this really resonates. The last two paragraphs are powerful. Enjoy!

  3. Sorry

    Had to talk with you…

    Well ….HOW MUCH MORE SHIT IS LIFE GONNA THROW AT ME….TODAY THE BIG BOSS’S CAME IN FOR A MEETING. NEWBOLD Revel SITE. .SSCL OUR COMPANY (we rent offices here after we were privatised 2 years ago ) IS CLOSING. ALL WORK IS GOING TO YORK. WE ARE BEING MADE REDUNDANT! !!!!

    I had to excuse myself out of meeting and fell into a heap in the toilet area. .crying my heart out. My manager came in and tried to  console me. I did not need this right now with the imminent divorce. 
    I have been married for 38 year’s. .we had loads of ups and downs. .recently more downs. We grew apart. .communications breakdowns.

    I an now in a THICK WILDERNESS. .NO NAVIGATION SKILLS. .SCARED. .I have a loving son and daughter. I have a brother who knows this situation. I have not told my parents. .yet.
    My job was my sustainability. .now I am in fear of how I’ll survive financially.
    Ally your words always help. X

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