Grief is Like This

In case you ever wondered what grief is like, it’s like this. Last night I went to Trader Joe’s. It was packed which is why I try to go during the day, but there was also a nice holiday vibe. When I came out with my cart full of groceries there was a woman standing there by the wreaths and I waited to see if she wanted to cross in front of me. She was around the age my mother would be if she was still here. Cut from the same cloth – put together, very attractive. She gave me a big smile with her twinkling eyes and said, “Oh, that’s okay, I’m just waiting for my daughter.” And that was it, I was gutted. I managed to smile back at her, though.


I went to my car, loaded in my groceries, put the cart back. I thought about going to find her to tell her how lucky her daughter is to have her and to maybe share that I do not have my mother here on this planet anymore, but I knew I would fall apart. So I got in my car and pulled out of the parking lot, drove to the light and put on my blinker to turn left on Pico. I ran through the moment in my mind and wondered why I was so deeply affected, and then I realized my mother will never say that to anyone again. She will never casually say she is waiting for her daughter, she will never say anything. I had a seriously hard cry all the way home. The kind where it’s hard to see and the streetlights get blurry and there’s nothing you can do. Tears everywhere, wrenching sobs coming from your gut. It’s coming up on a year since my mom exhaled for the last time. I was there with her for that and I’m grateful, but it’s painful to remember. It’s easier than it was the first five months or so when I would wake up in the morning and have to re-remember that she was gone. Or the first seven or eight months when I would reach for my phone to call her. Around month ten I stopped forgetting that I can’t call her.


But it’s still hard. Grief can knock you sideways out of nowhere. You can be going about your day and someone can say something as innocent as “Oh that’s okay, I’m just waiting for my daughter,” or you might come around the corner of an aisle at the grocery store and see the brand of napkins your gorgeous mother had to use to wipe her mouth when her jaw got slack the last year of her life, because ALS takes everything, slowly. Or you might remember the way your mother’s face looked when they turned off the bipap machine that had been breathing for her. Weirdly enough, you might hear someone sneeze on a subway platform in New York City and realize their sneeze sounds exactly like your mother’s. There are a million ways you can be okay and then not okay at all.


There will be people who will tell you your mother is always with you. They’re not wrong, but it is not the same and hearing that won’t help very much if you are really hurting. The loss of an entire person is incomprehensible. And there is no timeline. If anyone tells you how you should be feeling by such and such a time, that is someone who doesn’t understand grief. They’ll understand eventually, but right now they don’t and that’s okay. There are people who do understand, they’re the same people who have had the breath knocked out of them in an instant because of someone’s perfume, a Facebook memory, a dream lingering on the edge of their consciousness in the morning.

Grief is an expression of the depth of your love. If you loved with your whole heart there’s a good chance you’re going to suffer the loss with your whole heart as well, whatever that might look like for you. There’s no formula for this, no “right” way to grieve, there’s just an ocean of feeling. So if you are suffering at least know you loved your heart out. That’s a huge thing, not everyone can do that. And the love that you extended is something that can never be taken away, and the love that you still feel is alive and well and continuous. And that’s a lot, too. But for all of you who have had or may be having the raw, deep cry on the way home from Trader Joe’s, I see you, I understand and you are not alone.

Sending love to all this holiday season and always,

Ally Hamilton

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Meet Me in Greece!

Hello adventuring yogis!! I could not be more thrilled to announce our next retreat to one of the most stunning countries in the world…Greece! And I have found an absolutely magical retreat center on the Greek Island of Lefkada, the gem of the Ionian Sea. It is situated between two amazing Blue Bays offering breathtaking views and a world-class luxurious retreat center immersed in a Mediterranean setting. The center is part of the Experience Retreats collection and I am thrilled to be working with them to offer you this incredible, unforgettable experience!


Our dates are April 2-9, 2023!


Our retreat center is not just gorgeous, it’s also a 5-minute walk to the beach, water sports and many restaurants. It’s secluded and breathtaking. Our hosts are on-site and ready to make sure everything is perfect.



We’ll start the day with a 90-minute sweet, sweaty vinyasa flow class in one of the two most beautiful yoga studios I’ve ever seen. One is enclosed, one is open, so we will definitely use both! We’ll eat delicious, organic meals prepared by our private vegan chef who is ready to accommodate any dietary needs you might have.

We’ll have the choice of lounging by one of three infinity pools (each of the three villas has its own) or heading to the beach for optional kayaking or paddle boarding. We’ll have an incredible excursion on a gorgeous boat, guided hikes and a wine tasting. We’ll have a second yoga class before dinner each day – a deep, stretchy, restorative class that will include guided meditation.



There are three villas with 4 bedrooms each (8 people per villa). Each villa has AC, WiFi, a washing machine and its own infinity pool.

Remaining Room Options:

Shared room with two twin beds and a shared bathroom. This can also be a shared room with one bed for two people. The bathroom will be shared by you and your roomie and two other people in a shared room with two beds. Email for details!

What’s included:

Accommodations and meals, two yoga classes each day, excursion around the island on a private yacht, guided hikes, and transfers from Athens airport April 2nd and 9th.


What’s not included:

Airfare, travel insurance, eating at local restaurants.

I could not be more thrilled about this venue and the incredible time we’re going to have. My last retreat to Tuscany sold out in 24 hours. If you would like to come to Greece with me, please don’t hesitate! To reserve your spot, please email me at

Wishing you peace, good health, lots of yoga, and exciting adventures!

See you in Greece,

Ally Hamilton








Retreat to Stunning Cala de Mar, Ixtapa

Let’s Get Lost in Paradise!

Looking for a magical experience in a beautiful location with yoga twice a day, truly luxurious rooms with your very own panoramic views of the ocean, private plunge pool and outdoor terrace, with three delicious gourmet meals prepared for you every day? Me too!

Join me at the absolutely gorgeous Cala del Mar in Ixtapa February 14th-19th, 2023! Ranked by Travel & Leisure’s World’s Best Awards as number 1 of  The Best Resort Hotels in Mexico we’ll enjoy gourmet dining in four captivating environments, the award-winning spa if you decide to partake, their fitness facility if you want to add a little cardio to your mix, stunning meditation stations and gorgeous indoor and outdoor yoga studios where we will salute the sun, the moon and the stars. How could we not?

We’ll be doing morning and afternoon yoga and meditation classes, and in between you are free to relax, partake in the incredible spa treatments or get a massage, rent a bicycle or paddle board, go for a hike, or swim in the hotels amazing infinity pools! If you’re looking to deeply relax and immerse yourself in nature while still enjoying luxury, this is it.

What’s included: Two yoga and meditation sessions daily with yours truly, three delicious gourmet meals a day, cooked with local, organic ingredients, a sunrise excursion to Barra Potosi where we will watch the day break over the mountains and mangroves as we take a trip around this stunning lagoon in search of birds and wildlife, and your transfer to and from Zihuatanejo International Airport

What’s not included: Airfare and alcohol, and any of the optional activities: Private massage or spa treatments, paddle board rental, horseback riding, bicycle rentals, or any other treats you may choose to enjoy!


Cliffside Private Room: $3075

Cliffside Shared Room: $4445 ($2225/person)

Deluxe Private Room: $3720

Deluxe Shared Room: $5155 ($2580/person)

Private Penthouse: $6440

Penthouse for Two: $8095 ($4050/person)

Deposit: A $500/person non-refundable deposit holds your spot!

*PLEASE NOTE: All rooms have one king bed, so if you plan to share a room, please travel with someone you feel comfortable sharing a bed with! Roll-out beds are also available.

To make your deposit and reserve your spot, you can go to:


Venmo: Ally-Hamilton-5

Once you’ve made your deposit, please email me at: and let me know which kind of room you would like!

My last retreat sold out in twenty-four hours and space is limited. Please don’t hesitate if you’d like to join me for this incredible adventure in paradise!

Love to all,

Ally Hamilton


Glow from It or Grow from It

You can experience life as though it’s happening to you or for you and either way you set yourself up to feel like there is some quid pro quo, like you can tilt the odds in your favor if you’re a good person or you can manifest the reality you want if you try hard enough. You can tell yourself rejection is protection and everything has meaning and has been set up to teach you something. When painful things happen you can experience them as karma or as punishment for something you did or didn’t do. You can decide that everything that’s happening is happening for your growth.

The thing is, the earth was spinning long before you or I got here. The ocean existed before we showed up, the waves were rolling in, the waves were rolling out. The sun rose and set. The storms came and passed. The earth will keep spinning long after we’re gone. The chances that everything has been set up for any one of us are pretty small. That doesn’t mean we don’t matter or we don’t have the power to have a positive and lasting effect on the world around us, it just means that it might be a much kinder and gentler ride if you exchange the thought that “everything happens for a reason” to simply “everything happens” and it’s up to me to take from it what I will and to endeavor to be the best human being I can be while I’m here.

Whatever situations you face, whether we’re talking about a relationship or a job or anything else, you’re either going to glow from it – meaning it’s going to light you up and inspire you, or you’re going to grow from it. You do not have to do the mental gymnastics to put everything in your “thank you” column. When painful things happen, when you experience loss, grief, betrayal, or an unwanted twist in the plot, you can bet that you will grow. You may not have wanted the opportunity to grow in that particular way, you might wish with all your heart that you didn’t know what you now know, but we don’t get to choose what’s going to happen. The earth is spinning. We are here and my feeling is this is an extraordinary thing, just to be here with each other. Just to wake up each day.

Glow or grow in love,

Ally Hamilton Hewitt

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Your Relationship with Failure

We’re all going to try and fail at some things. If you’re like most people, you’ll try and fail a LOT and hopefully every time you fail, you’ll learn and grow and strengthen and also figure out how invested you are. How determined. How much it means to you, whatever “it” is you’re trying to do.

Failure is a topic that resonates with most people pretty instantly. You have some kind of relationship with failure, some feeling about it, whether you feel like a failure in certain areas of your life or you want nothing to do with the idea at all. As if failure might be contagious. Some people who are wildly successful by society’s standards still feel like a failure. Some people who are failures by society’s standards feel utterly fulfilled.

Sometimes we “should” on ourselves and compare and contrast our experiences with those of our peers and end up feeling pretty awful. It can be a lot easier to focus on what we haven’t done, or what we haven’t done well, than to pay attention to all the things we have done and all the things that are flowing.

You might find you spend a lot of time looking in the rearview mirror wishing you could turn the car around and go back a decade or two to do things differently.

Whatever the case, your relationship with failure is going to depend on your definition of success. So maybe consider your definition of success and look at your life through that lens. Do you have love? Meaningful connections? Pursuits that light you up? If you’re struggling to keep a roof over your head you won’t have time for questions like these right now, but otherwise these are good things to consider.

This is also what we’ll be talking about during the Friday Family Meeting on the Yogis Anonymous Practice Page. If this topic resonates with you, join me Friday at 11:15am PST! It’s free to join, we talk about a different topic each week and how to apply the practice of yoga to the topic at hand. Then I lead a live guided meditation. I’d love to see you!

Much love to all ❤️
Ally Hamilton

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Ready for Some Spring Cleaning? Me too!

Hello friends!

I am excited to announce my next online week-long retreat starting Monday, April 11-Sunday, April 17th!

If you think an online retreat can’t be a powerful springboard for change, for a reboot, for community support, for encouragement, growth and joy…then I know it’s because you haven’t joined me for one yet!

The theme of this retreat is Spring Cleaning. So many people are struggling with stress, and with carving out the time to take care of themselves. We all know we feel our best when we get enough rest both physically and mentally, when we feed ourselves well, take time to calm our nervous systems and quiet our minds, tend to our physical well-being, remember to focus on all the things that are flowing and all the gifts in our lives, and prioritize self-care, but it can feel overwhelming to figure out how to make time for all of that in a day, and still be able to do all the other things we need to do! Every meditation, gratitude prompt, vinyasa class and journaling prompt will be based on the idea of clearing out, of releasing tension, of creating more space and ease and a free flow of energy.

Lastly, you may feel like this is a strange time to focus on yourself when there’s so much heartache in the world right now, but I would kindly offer that I am so much more present and able to be of service when I fill my tank. It’s hard to help anyone when we’re running on empty.

All classes (meditations and vinyasa flows) will happen over zoom, and all classes will be recorded so you can join live, or take at a time that works for you. 

Here is what we’ll be doing:

Monday through Friday

15-Minute Guided Meditation and Gratitude Prompt sent to you each evening to be used on your schedule

9-10am Intermediate/Advanced Vinyasa Flow followed by a Journaling Prompt

Sunday: 11am-12:30pm PST 90-Minute Intermediate/Advanced Vinyasa Flow

When you sign up, I will send you Clean Eating Guidelines and Recipes and offer support along the way.

I try to make these retreats affordable, and to offer a LOT for a price that I hope is in reach! The cost of the retreat is $150

To register, go to:


or Venmo: Ally-Hamilton-5

Make your payment and then please email me at

If you’d like to add a 30-minute coaching session over zoom to share your struggles or goals, add $50 to your payment and we will schedule that when you email me.

Sending you tons of love, I look forward to another fabulous retreat!

Ally Hamilton


Does Your Inner Critic Have a Name?

I caught my Inner Critic trying to cause trouble earlier today, let’s call her Gladys. Gladys is a pain in the ass, and I rarely hear from her these days because I make a point of not making her feel welcome and I spent years telling her to pipe down and move along. But every so often if I’m not getting enough rest, or one of my kids is struggling with something, or I’m grieving or whatever the case may be, Gladys might pop by for a visit just to see if she can set up shop again. After all, she lived in my head for decades, and she probably misses the fun of torturing me. But I worked too hard to evict her, and I can smell her perfume coming. It’s the kind that gives me a headache, you know the stuff. Anyway, Gladys was feeling that I was not accomplishing quite enough to meet her exacting standards today and I noticed she was doing that because I started to feel this sense of dis-ease in my body. When I realized what was happening, I told Gladys to f&ck right off. Then I reminded myself that not every day has to be this super-productive, highly efficient experience, and that actually I had managed to do quite a lot of the important things. I made my kids lunch and hugged and kissed them both before my ridiculously tall teenager left for high school, and my middle-schooler hopped out of the car. So they both arrived to school on time, with lunch in their bags, feeling loved. I could have just stopped my day right there and that would have been a good day, right?

Then my friend Lauren Peterson came to film, and because there’s a crazy heatwave in Los Angeles (sorry to my east coast friends), I filmed her in the Practice Garden. So there’s a new Lauren class on the way, and that’s pretty awesome, right? Not sure what Gladys’ actual problem was, are you? I didn’t give Gladys any time when I went to meet Angela for lunch. Spending time with people you love is pretty productive, wouldn’t you say? And we had a great lunch and some quality time where no one was looking at a phone or distracted by anything, really, which is pretty marvelous. Connection is everything, and I could have ended my day there and it would have been great, right? But then I got in my car and for whatever reason, Gladys was just really persistent today. I’ve been thinking about my mom a lot because February 7th marked two months since she died and I can’t really believe it’s been that long, and I’m about to have the first birthday I’ll have without her, so that’s probably why Gladys thinks there might be a chink in my armor. By the time I got home I was feeling a little down again.

I walked into my house to find that while I was out my husband had decorated the entire living room with every kind of streamer and balloon for my birthday, because he’s that guy. The kind that makes you know you are super special to him and your birthday matters and he’s going to make sure you feel cherished. I’m surprised Gladys didn’t pack it in right then. Not sure how she thought she might still have a chance, but she did. So I told my husband I was feeling blue and he just hugged me because he doesn’t try to solve that kind of thing because he’s awesome. And then I thought, well Gladys, imma bring out the kryptonite now, we are heading to the mat. (Except Gladys is not a superhero, she’s a witch, but you catch my drift.) Anyway, that finally did it. Gladys was just no match for our yoga practice and I could feel her evaporating into the ethers as I saw both the moon rising and the sun setting while I practiced. And I filmed the class for y’all. 

I’m about to get ready to have dinner with one of my BFFs who has a birthday just before mine. We’ve been celebrating together since high school. Then I’ll come home to my little family. And even though I had to fight her off hard today, Gladys didn’t win. She will never, ever rob me of another day ever again. I worked too hard to erode her for years and I just will not give her a foothold…not even a toehold. 

If you need help with your own Inner Gladys, you know where to find me!


Sending you love,

Ally Hamilton

If you could use a coaching session or a package of sessions (scroll down after you click on the link), I have space for one new weekly or biweekly client for February and I can schedule one-off sessions as well. Watch this video about my approach to coaching here and email me to schedule at