I accept the fact that you may judge me, but I drink coffee and at this particular moment I have no intention of stopping. I was on a successful coffee fast for over a decade when evil forces disguised as the guy behind the counter at The Coffee Bean sucked me back in, and I could not be more grateful. This happened about 18 months ago, when I was seven months pregnant with my daughter, and I was chasing my then 2.5 year old son around while my husband was in Berlin working for a month. Oh, and I was teaching 10 yoga classes a week, and felt, well…exhausted.
I stood there with my son and my belly and ordered a chai latte. It was about 11am, and as I was moments away from running all over the playground, I thought a little boost was in order. Although I knew the answer, I asked Evil Forces if there was a decent amount of caffeine in the chai. He said yes, but he could make me a “dirty chai” if I wanted more. I didn’t ask what was in it, I just nodded. And I drank that dirty chai and I felt the strength of at least two super-heroes coursing through my veins. Or, maybe it was the shot of espresso which is what makes the chai “dirty” which I found out the next day when I went back for more. I had a moment of anguish when I realized my coffee fast had been unknowingly broken, and then, in a way only someone who has been 7 months pregnant can understand, a moment of “fu#k it, too late now”. I remembered my doctor had said one cup a day was okay, and I figured desperate times and all…so, I was and am back on the sauce.
Lest you think less of me, I will share that I eat local organic fruits and vegetables, no gluten, and no processed food. But here I am over a year later, with an almost four-year old, a tiny toddler, a new yoga studio, and a full teaching schedule. So if you want to judge me for the coffee, bring it on, suckas, cuz the yerba matte ain’t gonna cut it. Now I begin my day by grinding organic beans and making a delicious cup of coffee so I can be a happy functioning mommy at the crack of dawn. And at 11am, at which point I’ve already had half a busy day, I can usually be found (gasp) at the Starbuck’s drive-thru for my guilty pleasure, a latte (yes, if you’re counting, hit two of the coffee magic) . Why the drive-thru? Because that way I can get my boost without having to take my two kids in and out of their car-seats on our way to the beach, the park, Main Street, or wherever it is we’re headed. Here’s the funny thing. Because I go at about the same time every day, I usually order from the same guy. I had been referring to him as “our friend” to my son for months, as in, “mommy is getting a latte from our friend, and then we’re going to play”…and one day I asked him his name. Now when we pull into the drive-thru, my son yells, “Hi, Damon!!!” and Damon, who turns out to be an incredibly nice human being, knows my drink before I order. He knows my kids names, and I know he has a niece and nephew but no kids of his own yet because he hasn’t found that special someone (single ladies, take note). He knows I teach yoga, and I think he may eventually come to class. I share all of this with you because:
1. I think it is only fair you understand the killer core sequence is being powered by caffeine, and
2. These little connections in life which are so easy to miss can really enhance the experience of any given day
We are energetic beings and we are always spreading energy wherever we go. One of the great gifts of practicing yoga is just becoming more and more accountable for the energy we’re spreading. You could make someone’s day, and possibly even save someone’s life by offering a genuine smile at the right moment, and on the flip side, you could probably ruin someone’s afternoon (or however much time they decide to give it), with a thoughtless comment. So, really, this isn’t about coffee at all, it’s just about being awake 😉
More power to you,
14 thoughts on “Confessions of a YogiLatte”
Thank you for writing this. It makes me feel better about my own return to the coffee drinking dark side, lol. See you in class Sunday, I hope! lol
very glad to relieve you of any guilt, lol
I’m still in Tokyo, drinking my morning coffee enjoying your blog. People are often surprised I too (vegan, local, organic foods buyer), indulge in the java. Drink up! See you soon, I’m in my last week here. I’m looking forward to being back in California.
hey lauren, i’m so happy you’re back now!!! and i’m kind of glad to know i’m in such good company with the java-love 😉
Love this! Thanks for fueling your killer core sequence any way you can – it rocks! Having 4 kids I totally understand the need to get your energy any way you can. Own it, make no excuses, be you, 100% genuine.
4 kids. You are my hero. And thanks for the back-up 😉
Hi Ally. We haven’t met in person yet but I know you’re the kinda person I wanna meet. I too teach yoga (whoop! whoop! Baptiste Yoga) as a career and have two kids and a four legged furry face son and believe that a piece of happiness can be a latte (*gasp* even for a yoga teacher!) Although I’ve never been a java person, I’m a close friend to it’s cousin, cacao! I think our human ways make us better teachers. Someday when I’m in santa monica, I will be visiting!
Nikki, I would LOVE to meet you, too, you sound like my kinda gal 😉
next time you’re in SM, let’s go for a cup of coffee, lol
I also eat organic, no fast food (except in-n-out), no violent movies, and try to buy fair trade… and yes, i LOVE COFFEE! I gave up coffee a while back, tea’d it up for an amazing period of time. Now, with that delicious pumpkin spice latte…oh how I couldn’t resist. Still drinking the teas, but also, that creamy or robust flavor of coffee can really soothe a tired mind.
You are awesome! No guilt for you!
Thanks, Bonnie! I LOVE all these awesome yogis “coming out of the closet” or coffeehouse to back me up! xo
Ditto ditto! I go on and off coffee. Half the time feeling guilty and half the time thinking, ‘wait a minute! if I made a list of all the supposed not-good things no matter how organic or all-natural they are (come on, even raw unfiltered agave nectar in mass doses or too many dried organic fruits can have a crappy effect), then what would be the point of being human living in a human body doing everyday human things?’ Coffee is fun! And I LOVE the taste too. So sheesh, I’m so glad you wrote this because that feeling of needing to be the ‘perfect’ yogi, whatever the eff that means, just sucks and is so not important! Oh life’s little pleasures. (And connections like you said.) That’s what it’s all about. Thanks Ally! Loving all your posts.
I’m drinking my first cup as I write this, and laughing. I’m pretty sure if this is the worst thing we’re doing, we’re doing all right 😉
Thanks for being so…. real! Coffee on!
I am new to YA (online, as I live in WA) and your blog. I’m reading from the past, forward, I guess. Anyway, I loved this post. As a mom of 2 also (6 1/2 and 3), I can SO relate to your words. Keep up the good work, both on and off your mat 🙂 Peace.